there is a better way

why not?

i thought i already believed in forgiveness before lately.  but i think i had only scratched the surface.  i’m still scratching.

now i am convinced that forgiveness is the way to go.  the scriptures that speak of this are not just word fillers.  those words are meaningful.  they mean more to me now.  they are in there for good reason.  when you are so filled up with anger, it is sometimes harder to be fully engaged in some of the good things in a life.  things bounce off you more than they absorb into your very being.

i didn’t do myself any good by holding anger in and not dealing with some past and present things. i’m noticing more lately what i want to try to do better about.

“letting go” has renewed meaning to me lately.

these are not just quaint words in a quote or a poem.  if you truly let go, something else can take the place.

it has been priceless for me to experience anger turning to forgiveness to something sweeter.  this has felt healthier and freeing.  this feels better.

i don’t believe that every forgiveness experience will lead to a renewed relationship, but i do believe that it doesn’t do us much good to hold on to anger like a big weight that holds us down.  and it did weigh on me.  and there is a whole rest of a lifetime to continue to try to make a better choice.

when you let go of anger and choose a better way, what is left in its place?  something better.  something softer.  more room for accepting and taking note of joy in a life.  if you’re not trying so hard to repel things and keep others out, … you let something better IN.

yes, there is a better way, kathleen

PS. awh, my 18 y/o daughter ~A came up to me tonight and wrapped her arms around me and said, “i just haven’t given you a hug in awhile mom.”  tis sweet.