hope begins in the dark … home visit

guess what?  i bet some of you know.  i know, tee hee.  my 16 1/2 y/o daughter ~E (who has been in the long term residential treatment center in utah since last september) is coming home for a week visit in mid oct and we are planning on discharge completely by the end of november.  she is doing great and this is our plan for now.  things are so much better now and lately.

i have no regrets about sending her there for (it will be 14 months by the time she comes home if all goes according to our current and recent plan).  yes of course i have missed her, i have said it plenty on this blog journal.  you know.  some of you know even more than i share on my blog.

but i would do it again in a heartbeat if this is what it took to save her from the really tough and destructive path she had been going down.  i honestly believe that her growing up years would have been even that much harder if she had not gone to this treatment program.  i don’t want to get into the details of her diagnoses here but she needed help and she got help.  she has come so far, especially lately.  it is like talking to a changed woman, even at her young age of 16 1/2. 

remember … hope is a confident expectation, not just blind wishing.

“hope begins in the dark.”  (i love that quote ever since the first moment i read that TARa.)

see my grin, girl?

can you see the hope in my words?

can you see the tears in my writing?

can you see how something good has come from this experience?

i see it so far.  and i continue to see more and more since this experience.

every experience gives us so much.  not always what we want, but what we … need.  the Big Guy knows what He is doing in our lives.  i do not doubt that.  i want to speed up the process sometimes (okay, often) and not be as patient as i should be, but it is all for our good, it is all for our experience. 

John 16:20 ” … but your sorrow will be turned into joy…”  i have loved and lived by this scripture ever since it first captured my attention in jun 2006 right after a loved one died suddenly and i did not know how to handle the loss.  i clung to this scripture promise and i have continued to apply this scripture over and over in my life (and to others) in so many other experiences. 

His promises are sure. i love the promises and guidance in the scriptures, they are in there over and over.  i see them everytime i seek and want more.

what has been on my mind so much this week is this one ” … for unto him that receiveth I will give more…” (2 Nep 28:30).  it makes me ponder so much that if and when you want <to know> more, He will give you more … as fast as you are ready for it … to take in more.  i feel like a sponge lately trying to read as much as possible and take in more and more than i can hold.  i love it when studying/reading/pondering feels like this.

and i am grateful that our daughter ~E is doing so much better, sound so hopeful, is trying, and that i get to fly down and pick her up and escort her back for a week here in october.  daddy/hubby will take her back and then she will be home for good a month later (if the plan works, it is still up to the girl).  but talking with her is like talking to a changed person lately. 

grateful for it all, the hard stuff, too.  it makes the sweets so much sweeter.

great day readers, kathleenybeany aka beaming mama today